My R-K-O

hmm

2009-07-25T20:16:00.000+08:00

2 more days to my reservist !! SIAn AR...

anyway, so sry , so long nv update.. cause was really damn busy.. haha... got a few problems here and there but well , still manage to settle it well, although nt really settled.

2 weeks and i will be here to blog again =)

P.s : everything has change already. look at ur dp , and look at everything that u done. enuff said.

Kenny leo.

tired

2009-07-10T02:55:00.002+08:00

sian reservist soon arrrrrrrrrr. nvm .. 2 weeks only.. endure!!!

lately very tired . go out and come back late. seems like my body cannot take it anymore.

and one of the days. my eyes damn pain.. red like siao. . . maybe cause of my contacts. i close my eyes for 10 secs , have to open again, cause pain...wa... that day i cant even sleep even though i am that damn tired. . but well. i still manage tosleep after like 1-2 hrs. =/ . . i going blind liao =(

to whom she may concern, hey, u hoooo, can u hear me ? i bet u dun even read my blog at all. its ok...september is drawing near. better enjoy ur time there.. when u come back, we shall talk, face to face.

kenny leo.

"treasure those that treasure you"

busy busy busy

2009-07-02T01:51:00.012+08:00

has nv been so busy b4... of course going out and hanging out and stuffs. clubbing, badminton-ing, soccer, jogging, movie, swimming, mahjong , just to name a few =X . . .

19 jun -this should be a friday, went out with jing , sheng, shuang and timm to night safari ( hey it's been a while since i been there xD ) . . .i wonder y so many people from india came cause it's like a tour and a lot of groups will there .so we reach there and 1st thing we went for the animal show. wanted to take pics with the snakes but in the end didn't ( not because i'm scare alrite). Queue for like half an hr b4 we can enter the arena. But it was rather LOL. cause everyone was running to "CHOP" the gd seat. especially the aunties and kids. . . then shuang , forever lively de, went to run also.. haha.. then sheng and me bo pian, run also.. hahaha... cause in the mean while, jing and timm were at the toilet. . but lucky still got gd seat ^^ . . can't really take gd pic cause cannot on flash, if not the animal will startled then jia lat.

the seat that we chop.

can u see the animal? suppose to land on the shoulder.

The Big python!!!!!

we took quite alot of pics.. but now i too tired to upload.. tmr i upload some again ^^ ... alot of animals like sleeping leh. cant really see much of them. . although quite tiring but we still have a enjoyable night!

20 Jun- wanted to go double O with jan and sta. but in the end dun have. so went swimming instead. i know la, i skinny but doesn mean cannot swim rite? hahhaha.. GOLD de leh.. :X .. this one no pic, cause i scare u all drool.. ahah. should i say faint? i realise that my "frog style" is much better than "free style" sia.. dunnoe how i pass my gold de.. LOL! . . swim until song then suddenly rain... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz . . .. wat the ~~~ . .. so in the end went to bugis to shop a bit, makan a bit. but rather tiring. cause nv do warm up then go swim. zai bo? in the middle leg cramp then GG liao xD . ..

21 Jun- Soccer time~~~ .. afternoon inside the familiar cage ^^

22jun-23 Jun- Time on my own. Jog, excercise , see girls( oops jk la) .and rest xD

24 Jun- Badminton with the malaysians! . . Penny , wei shun and co. quite a bunch of cool ppl. rather easy going.. btw , i know penny at double O de.. rather " tan de lai " . sent her off at woodlands then miss my last bus. then take taxi home.. CHOR AR!! =( ...

eh tired liao. alot of things to put but i think at the moment stop for now. haha =X

Danile send me a email. the content i read already. What i can say to u is i can forgive but i cannot forget. but well we still continue our lives anyway. and i still regard u as my friend. and the very last sentence of the email, i hope u stil remember. whether u will like her or nt, maybe i shouldn't care anymore. As a new motto came out of my thought " why should i get affected by people that dun give a damn about me " . . so i decided that well, when pat comes back from vietnam, i see what i can do. cause she still has her things with me. but right now. i not giving a damn about her anyway. she rather keep in contact with u all , then someone who is so close to her and treat her so well when she is in sg. like how u all at the moment dun give a damn about me and living the lives that u all wants. its a gd thing , at least i not giving u all problems. one thing for sure, that's not the end of me. when time and fate allow the 5-6 of us to meet again, it will arrive ... for sure.

rko and jericho champions. enuff said.

suppose to meet Pravina later (been ages since i met her ) to help her on her fbm... see i so gd friend.. hahaha.. and now i still haven sleep.. =X . . . and play badminton with penny they all after meeting pravina. so tiring day again tomoro xD . ..

"Friends care for each other in terms of feelings . u dun give a damn about me even as a close friend , so y should i spare a thought for u either.'

Kenny leo.

2009-06-18T18:53:00.002+08:00

my favorite song. well i prefer it live

going play mahjong now. wish me luck =)

Butter O tmr and collecting of my cert =)

money come come

with a peaceful heart at the moment

kenny leo

decision made

2009-06-18T05:24:00.002+08:00

after so long, i didn update my blog because i wanted to cool down, not wanting to talk to the 5 letters and stuff. i have been going clubbing, jogging, meeting up new friends and forgetting all the pain and ordeal that she gave me. and after so long, i thought that well maybe they will just send me sms like once or something to ask how am i or something. But i was terribly wrong. But what i can say is the 5 letters truely make me realise how untrustworthy the world is, how care and concern are different from everyone point of view. there are definitely gd and bad times. but seeing things like they caring for each other and stuff make me realise that well, maybe i shouldn let them affect me anymore. and i should move on. and i know one day i gonna regret my decision. but ..life still goes on...

for the last time.

K

2009-06-08T00:00:00.002+08:00

i have to wait for my reservist before going back to my studies. most probably i will be studying back in MDIS for my degree course. and i been working for a while quit, then didn work again. then my parents started to nag again. talking among themselves about me behind my back as though i did not hear. but every damn words is crystal clear to me. its damn annoying , bloody hell.

i started talking to her after a month. but she still didn reply me back. i gave her the time and yet she dun appreciate it. well.....

and so the problems i'm facing is not temporary. but now, seriously , all the problems i facing, i have really no choice but to trust only myself. i can only believe in myself. i can only stand up to myself. i'm not going to say all the things all over again cause from the past archives , u all can notice who i am talking about. so for me , i know one day they will regret .

i feel like taking driving license now. hope its not too late.

it was them that make me feel like this. it was them that i have become like this. but i hope it's temporary. to those that i had been nice to , generous to , friendly to, well i dunnoe if i can still be like this anymore. cause it's beginning to be

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With hatred

K

学警出击

2009-05-31T02:13:00.006+08:00

Kong Sei Lao (Michael Miu) has just returned to Hong Kong from Taiwan and wants to quickly find is daughter Yau Yau (Elanne Kong) to mend their relationship and also plan revenge. He pretends to surrender to Do Yik Tin (Lum Lei) who caused him to be jailed. On the other hand police officer Cheung Lap Man (Ron Ng) has been assigned a special assignment and good friend and police officer Lei Pak Kiu (Samuel Chan) are like a family. Pak Kiu continues to be strong and continues to be friends with Lap Man but Lap Man can only help the police investigate this case further in order to capture Sei Lao by becoming an undercover cop. But when evidence had proven the guilt of Sei Lao and Lap Man managed to have a good relationship with Sei Lao the police force did not let him reveal his real disguise yet wanting him to continue on being an undercover cop and so during this time Lap Man becomes one of Sei Lao’s people and turns his back on the police force….

Yik Tin keeps a close watch on Sei Lao but purposely shows that he trusts Leung Siu Tong (Michael Tse) more and intentionally puts him in a high position but Sei Lao has all the information to be able to plan the revenge and uses Yik Tin’s wife Ching Yeuk Yui (Kathy Chow) in the organization as an influence to help Sei Lao up the ranks. But when he thought that he was in control, his drug dealing business failed and Sei Lao discovers that the people he trusted the most betrayed, tricked and used him…

wow this hk drama really damn nice!!! i not sure if they are part 1 or part 2 to this sequel, but this sequel damn nice... but lately busy so haven't watch finish yet.. will watch finish a.s.a.p .. and 悠悠 is damn cute ! =Xxx and Laughing Kor damn cool~~~

P.S: comment is left and i replied u too. but the thing is , i dunnoe what to feel anymore. tmr is 1st june already. well. as i say, i dunnoe what to feel anymore. maybe as time goes by, maybe i got surprises or anything. well, just let fate decide ba, although i dun really trust fate. For now, i only trust myself, myself. and myself. i love it when people misunderstood me, people thinking i can't study , people thinking i'm bad. and when i 'm proof them wrong, i like to see their expression. my diploma course might end in a very hurried manner, but its a stepping stone to my next lvl of education. ALL MY DOUBTERS( IF THERE IS), SCREW YOU!

tmr going crystal hse for dinner. its quite surprising too that suddenly that's a mdis gathering or some sort. well, maybe photos will be taken and uploaded here . if there is. a few have confirmed that they are going already.i hope all will come but i know it's just wishful thinking. pravina, miko, sze ling ,to name a few, together with the letters , make me feel so warmed because the friendship is so genuine and it brings the happiness in me.but slowly, most of them have to leave because they are not locals here, and someday they have to return to their country. so do i feel sad for myself that the friendship seems to be broken, or do i feel happy for them at least its another stepping stone for them , be it study or work?

so will i be wearing a 'mask' to see u all tomoro?

With mixed feelings,

K

2009-05-26T02:32:00.002+08:00

now i realise something. people do care, but nt the way i wan it to be. i dun wan ppl to care when i tell them to.

i feel that when i tell them something, then they care. i believe i'm selfish but it's always better to have care and concern without telling them my problems. Well , i guess i will keep my problems to myself then. and when the day arrive, well, i'm not sure what i gonna do either.

With little care and concern

K

2009-05-23T23:06:00.002+08:00

Has just realized that he is not the one killing the letters. The letters have always been in tact . dun get what i mean?

with confusion

K

2009-05-22T21:13:00.004+08:00

been watching this Hk drama " 通天干探" . damn nice!!!!~

主演演员：陈豪元彪黎姿蒙嘉慧
邵美琪姚嘉妮郑嘉颖
黄智贤元华

世上有各种稀奇古怪的事，往往令人匪夷所思。前世今生、冤鬼索命、蛊毒、预知感应、冥冥之中是否早有定数，相信与否？其实在於一念！原火新本是一名干探，破案无数，在警界薄有名声，其後受到妻子带著女儿出走的打击，加上一次行动时意外误杀一名金毛青年，内心生歉疚，对前途心灰意冷，毅然放弃一切到内地的宝禅寺作俗家弟子。虽然在寺中带发修行了十年，火仍未能从佛法中找到解脱，但练就了一身好功夫。一次楔机，火遵从师命跟一班师兄弟武僧回港，一方面为宝禅寺筹款，另一方面是籍著旧地从游以解开心结，火因而遇到一些神秘而不可思议的经历。话说火以及众武僧表演之时，有一神秘金毛青年突然出现，此人语无轮次神情古怪，其後更中邪身亡。更令火震惊的是，其旧上司警司李志超亦是同样的情况之下离奇死去，基於友情，火决定留下来查出事实的真相。。

thx to sister and sister's bf for talking to me the other day. Much appreciated .

life pretty ok. a game of soccer yesterday, vent all the aggression out really makes me feel better. but well, still looking forward to her talking to me someday. my energy is going to drain out soon.

with patience

K

2009-05-20T15:09:00.002+08:00

i am just upset that u still talk to the rest of the letters except me. i mean what BS is this? am i not part of the group? i don't know what you are trying to do. trying to mia from me and make me feel bitter or wat? i think time will tell. . because u trying to make me disappear from this . but i already tell J wat i wanna say le... and she will be the snow white again because i'm trying to hard to keep this friendship.. at least i'm trying.

sometimes it's true that " never judge a book by its cover" . just take susan boyle for example. people tend to think that i'm fierce , like a ah beng. then only know how to play , dunnoe how to study . but well. i will proof these people wrong. results will proof . i've been working hard for my diploma last term and for the degree program, i will do the same too. because it's not just words.
it's a promise.

with a bit of upset

K

2009-05-20T00:00:00.001+08:00

how am i gonna rescue this damn friendship, when u all makes me think that this friendship is nothing to u all?

2009-05-19T00:55:00.000+08:00

woke up early today to jog at east coast. my usual route is >>>> . . but today, i decided to go by <<<< . then i pass by the bike rental shop, the jap restaurant and the sea where everybody play water sports there. and it remind me of the 5 letters again, especially her.

To B: I not sure what u been doing lately at sabah, but hope everything is alrite for you and remember to contact us when u are back .

To D: Gd luck in ur job.

To J: The things u do and gave us will nv be in vein. I know what u feeling rite now, because this feeling, i had it since april. Till now, it's still there. But well, what can i do man? i can only wait. i excercise, work and play just to forget, but at night, whenever i'm going to sleep, i always think of her , think of y everything have to happen like this , all without an answer. But what can i do man. I hope u will feel better too. cause i see ur blog and see u got some problem with ur friend too. Must take care alrite?

To L: Sister, to me, u have always been stronger than me. I have try to be as strong like u. but sometimes emotions are hard to hide. i hope ya understand . i know it's a doomed love. but i nv know it's seem like not only love is doomed. . . u get what i mean? ur blog haven been updated lately so i not sure how are u lately, but no matter what, you also must take care k?

To P: well., what more can i say already? Y would i feel like that ? some things , it takes 2 to make it happen. u are happy , doesn't mean i am. and i am happy doesn't mean u are. we have been close friend when u are in sg, and now u make me feel like i am boring to u now, since u got new friends there already. but i believe that's not the reason for not talking to me since. Well i dunnoe . We are close friends last time, i hope it doesn't change in the near future. i already got alot to say to u man. but i dun think now it's the appropriate time . cause i will still be waiting for u to talk to me.. cause i believe........

its always gd to say most things i wan on the blog. so i will feel better and in the mean time, they will know how i feel too. but life still goes on, be it sad or happy... to all my peeps that see my blog, thx alot.

with uncertainty

K

will this ever happen again?

2009-05-17T03:45:00.004+08:00

enlighten me ....

as i say i like to bombard everything here, be it happy or unhappy.. recently i cant sleep well because she still didn talk to me.. how long will this break end? y does it affect me so much? but then, i'm not weak alrite. . if not i will always be stuck at hm and not going out and work already. COME ON , i need the answers! pls , give me an answer. pls.........

with a confuse mind

K

2009-05-17T01:11:00.003+08:00

went k box and eat with ken and yan zhen.. will update tmr...

anyway, the main purpose is to say that whatever i do in the past is always truthful... the personality i portray, the things i do for the 5 letters, especially 1 special letter, has always been genuine . The time i give , the things i sacrifice , i nv demand anything in return, because these 5 letters has become quite a impact in my life, be it gd or bad.. and now , the situation is bad. i dun wanna make it from bad to worse. and I've promise her that i will wait for her to talk to me. and i dun wanna break any promise to her at all. So, trust me, one day , as i say , i will come back stronger if i manage to come out of this ordeal. "friendship is forever " ....

i dun dare to lookk at ur number, i dun dare to look at the msn , i dun dare to look at ur profile , because if i do, i will definitely come and talk to u . . and since now, i still think for u that u need a break . do u know how i feel now actually? my special friend? i hate thinking back the times we have, so close as a gd friend.All i wish is that we can still be gd friends. that's all i wish for...

is granting my wish, that difficult ? my friend?

with a heartless heart

K

my state of mind now.

2009-05-15T18:00:00.000+08:00

你说我对你紧紧跟随
你觉得疲惫
你一句话就　逼我撤退
没想到你说最近选择
－个人睡
我忍住眼泪　我尊重眼泪
孤独万岁　失恋无罪
谁保证　一觉醒来有人陪
我对于人性早有预备
还不算太黑
独身万岁　失恋无罪
爱不够爱你的人　才受罪
用过去悲伤换来自由
难道不珍贵
一个人崩溃
并不是在犯罪

nice song. enjoy peeps

results

2009-05-14T21:16:00.003+08:00

wooo. just got back my results.. and can't believe my F and B , i got A for it . and my accounting got A too... comm and case studies got B . . so overall... 4 A, 3B, and 1 C ( damn marketing ) ... well at least i graduated MDIS with a diploma... next step , study again... considering options now... =)

with happiness

K

2009-05-14T04:53:00.002+08:00

it's either u treat me like a friend, or i treat u like a enemy. . .

i can treat u so gd that no 1 can compare....

or i can hate u , like nobody business...

not specifying any1 , just in general....

with special regards...

K

Grats to yan zhen, my 5 yrs friend

2009-05-14T02:15:00.005+08:00

congrats !!! =) . . . can see ur husband is a very nice guy .. so wish u happy marriage, and give birth to a chubby chubby cute cute baby =) . . remember to let me see and "bao" ur baby hor ^^( husband not in photo so dun anyhow guess)

life's been ok lately.. been jogging, doing the same routine.. but yesterday i was down with a flu... (hey , a normal flu , not a swine flu alrite ) ... nowadays due to the swine flu, people are getting paranoid . . for example, if u just open ur mouth and say " ah " ...... even b4 u say "CHOO" , ppl will start to run away from u.. IT"S TRUE!! i saw this b4... it's a funny sight to see anyway. . . i was buying mee pok the other day, and i nearly die luffing when i see this.. my mee pok nearly topple.. but phew, as a agile person, i manage to catch the ta-per-ware(how u spell it?) . . .

went to vivo to eat at the chicken rice shop beside the kopitiam with wendy... not too bad... but the dessert, wow .. it's so sweet. . i bet u after drinking 2 bowls, u will get diabetes straight... alrite i'm exaggerating but u can guess how sweet is that. . . but the chicken, tao geh, tao pok and egg was not bad... so , at least it's full and filling ^^ . . . then went to repair her sim card... and waited for like 25 mins just for 0 queue.. yes 0 queue!! 2015, 2016--> her next no. i'm pissed at the staff there. There are like enough staff to cater for us leh. then all dun bother, one guy was like seeing the monitor and looking so engross-ly . . makes me wonder is he watching........ hmm... ok nvm.. but i hate it when ppl laze around and nt attending to customer...

bon voyage to my brother who is going to thailand soon... take care...

sometimes, they say time will heal all wounds... well maybe.. at least i'm not as hurt compare to last few weeks . . but i still remember the times we met and study, went out , be it the two of us or with the 4 of them. . no matter where i go , as long its the places we been to, i will remember u...

always...

K

new blog on the block

2009-05-12T01:58:00.002+08:00

hi all...can't believe i have a blog... after all so many donkey yrs... i yo, makes me looks old.. wanted to keep this blog simple so didn really add any fancyful stuffs. . . i created this blog just to bombard all my unhappiness, happiness and watever i wanna say, wanna vent. .. so no offense to any ppl alrite. . .

some of my friends will know what i'm going through right now. . but to those that really wanna know even though i didn't really say,well, tmr then i elaborate here more ba....

p.s: my cbox got problem.. need help!!! =(